Collab with Marlelighla! Sub to her!! www.youtube.com inspiration i love peanut more than words can describe, more than anyone can imagine, more than anyone will ever realize. most people have no clue, what it’s like to be in my position, and the position marley was recently in. when you are faced with the most heart wrenching time of your life. i hate this. i hate feeling this way. KNOWING, that peanut will never be mine. knowing, things will never be the same. knowing---that i have to basically give him up. i am no longer full leasing him, nor buying him. my trainer is now buying him. we will probably be half leasing from her, but he's mainly for her daughter, georgia. i know they will do fine as a team, but it is just killing me. nobody realizes how much this is hurting me, and i just can't keep it in any longer. you can't just take away my best friend? i barely even had a chance. although i know that yes, i will still be able to see him, it's going to kill me more to see him with somebody else. we've been inseparable since the moment we met. nothing, and nobody could keep us apart. i've tried to stay strong, because i don't want to but myself through this agony. i can't. it's just too horrible to feel this way all the time. but i just can't help it. i love him too much to care right now. and i know that everybody is upset, or whatever, when i do cry about this. but i CAN'T HELP IT! my best friend! how can this be happening to me?! why! what did i do to deserve this ...